taongbayan na lang siya sa dula ng buhay ko
and so thus went the text i sent a couple of friends last friday, in effect announcing the demise of a five-and-a-half long crush i had over this guy, better known in this blog as J boy.
the term taongbayan actually came from an anecdote haz shared with us once about her sister. apparently, one day, her sister came home from school quite excited to share with her family that finally, after all those years of not being included in school plays, she was part of one. their mom then asked, ano role mo, anak. then haz' sister promptly, and quite proudly, replied, taongbayan! so, okay, role na pala yun.
anyway, recently people who've held top billing in my life have begun being mere extras for one reason or another. maybe i've matured in my taste (highly unlikely, and i'm quite sure of that, for reasons i will not share in this blog). or maybe it's just that when people's cameo roles become less frequent, you begin to get numb to the former pain that comes from not having that person around until the time comes that you realize, maybe it wasn't as important as i first thought.
i don't know. what i do know is that the feeling's akin to the scales falling off my eyes (biblical reference right there, if you didn't notice) and realizing, probably for the first time, that there's more to life than the love and hurts that alternate deep within me.
i gotta go sleep. i can't fall asleep on the soup over lunch, can i?
p.s. keith, i've to tell you something. hope i catch you online soon.
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