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Dear Self,

You are running out of patience, is it?

Wow, it seems that planets alignment have been disrupted lately, if we will connect my reactions on how i used to. given, there will always be people who will lift you up, tho more would try to pull you down. our world is sooo full of monsters - hiding behind faces.

what happened is that this certain girl will always sneak preview what my statuses in facebook. she is a critic wearing an avid fan shirt. she would know when i am happy, when i am sad, when im broken hearted and when im broke. she would know who i am with and who i have not seen for years. she's a stalker! and she is a pretend friend.

so why do i allow her to access my wall? it's simple us pressing the unfriend botton right? nope of course! doing so will somehow alleviate her suffering - you see checking my wall is the only thing she is busy wif, that all she does (sorry to say this...) career woman she's not. and she has all the time in the world to make gossip about people, the victim? me and my sister ..grrrr

respect begets respect thats one of the lesson my parents would reiterate every now and then. so when i tried to respect people i somehow expect they would do the same. and when im bitching wif someone, i wont be hurt if they'd bitched me up too. this is an action-reaction world - and i believe on that : )

what was so intriguing about me? and my sister perhaps? we are both so ordinary people, trying hard to survive the everyday test of life. my sister - to support her own family, and me to support my parent and daughter. nothing so fantabulous. nothing extra-ordinary!

if i were her, i would just do the best i can for my family. my business is mine only! if i want to bitch with several guys, then whats the issue?? each has his/her own right to direct their lives the way they wanted it to be. it's not because you are doing something in the dark means everyone is practising the same cult! darn hobby! and my sister? even if she's facing financial struggles - then whats thing to worry? will you give her a cent if she ask you for help?

one thing i know, gossip cant harm me, but your envy might kill you!