package

Hurt....
Pain....
Love...
Deception...
Trust...
Betrayal....
Blinded...
Confusion...

Same reasons that caused someone pain. How can it be possible that the same things happen again? Though, in a different manner. But the pain is intensely even more.
Lessons we have learned in the past haunt us. Lessons that have helped us stand and continue our journey are the same lessons that we easily forget. Why? Why? Why do we easily forget where we have fallen? We only remember when we have fallen again....

How come the pain is intensely more today than yesterday? Why?

We would like to believe that we have become wiser. The truth is we are only wise until we face the real riddle. Then again we are put in a maze... Plenty of roads... Which one do we take? As always, we take the path that we feel is right, but don't think is right. Emotions truly may deceive us and waver us from our beliefs. Why?

In the end, we have no one to blame but ourselves.
We allowed such things to happen. We allow ourselves to get hurt. We succumb to the trap of pain.
It was very beautiful and inviting. It was a sight to behold. How can something so beautiful be so scornful as well. How can something that can make one smile, can also be the source of such great pain? Something so enticing, something so precious when not handled with care can cause so much chaos.
All the while, I thought I already knew how ti handle it with care. I thought I already knew how to hold it just right as not to break and crush it. I thought I already knew how to carry it with open palms as not to let it suffocate and yet not drop it carelessly.

No matter how many times we are given this precious package it still breaks when not handled properly. It may hurt the first time we lose it. It hurts even more the second time it happens. Is it me? Do I know not how to take care of it? Am I not capable of it? Why? Why?
Silence.... I hear nothing but the beating of my heart....

Then we forgive everyone that have hurt us, maligned us. Alone, we do not forgive ourselves.