The thing i promised i wont blog.

I told myself I'll never blog about this. But there's something about blogging that puts a stamp of finality to one's issues. So if only for the fact that I want to once and for all put an end to this melodramatic episode of my life, I decided to blog about this issue that's been bothering me for months now.

I'm saying goodbye to "pretty boy". We didn't have a fight; we never had a serious misunderstanding. We simply grew apart.

At first, I was reluctant to let go. I felt it was a friendship worth fighting for. But when it's only you who's interested in fighting for a relationship, you also get tired. And you tell yourself that maybe, you are better off not having this person in your life anymore. This choice, I know, doesn't make me a bad person. If anything, it makes me aware that even beautiful friendships have to come to an end. Especially if that's what it entails for both of us to grow.

We have a long history, my friend and I. We both thought we'd go through some of our life's special moments together and witness one another's joys. The saddest part of putting an end to our friendship is the realization that we won't be part of each other's lives anymore. But as they say, nothing is really permanent in this life. What was good for us a couple of years back may not be good for us now. If only for that, we owe it to ourselves to part ways.

I won't blame anyone for this. I've stopped figuring out what went wrong and how we came to this and why. The most that I can accept is that we have grown apart and at a certain point, we just stopped noticing. And perhaps, in the interest of self-preservation, we both stopped caring.

I wish this person a good life. I wish that the choices we both made will compensate for this loss. As for me, I know I'll get by. Though I never believed that time heals all wounds because I'm sure that the only thing time can do is draw us farther apart, I still believe that time can make me forget. So that's what I will do: forget about this episode and all the pain that it caused. My only regret is that I waited this long to do this. Considering how things ended, I should have done this earlier.